I have a mini testimony. Well, there is a girl at my work. She's barely been there a year... and is already almost a manager. anyways... she started off in the Rzone which is our video game area. I was sooo disgruntled about that. I wanted to work over there forever; but i'm a girl. then it turned out when she started they needed help over there really bad, so they just put here there. She ended up doing really well. so, they made her world leader of babies. Well.. it didn't really matter to me personally. I had been there through two world leaders already. But.. when she came... she wasn't doing anything but being on the phone and on the computer. She never helped clean up, straighten or reshop.. the normal stuff everyone does. and man.. let me tell you... all the girls who take turns working in babies as normal employees were all pissed... lol. then, nadia came back from her maternity leave. She started getting on jamie. But.. thing is.. during that time, everyone was always complaining about her. and i said in my heart... wouldn't it be Christ's way instead of being mad at her or talking about her... to treat her with kindness and make her feel wanted. So, here comes me riding in on my donkey of kindness. I was going out of my way to do nice stuff for her and help her. And, I'd talk to her and stuff. I was the only one who did this mind you... but about 4-5 months down the line, she started telling our store manager how she missed the rzone and her friends. I guess she didn't want to always be back there. so, they started letting her serve as a manager on duty for a few shifts a week. And, they didn't mind cuz we're one manager short. Well, ever since then, she is always nagging me about getting all these bday sign up quotas and all this other stuff.... and it just really ticks me off sometimes. cuz i see a lot of people who she doesn't nag about anything. she has picked her favorites. i mean.. i don't care if i'm a favorite or not. but she often singles me out and picks on me a lot. She doesn't do it in the direct mean way either. She does it in the phony "acting likei'm being nice but you're the only one who'll listen to me so i do it to you" way. have i ever mentioned how phony people just get me going anyways? Cuz i really can't stand that.. either like me or don't. but, don't act like you're my friend if you're not. sooooo....
my point is... when everyone talked about her, did i? no.
when everyone thought she made the crappiest world leader so far, I helped her and was her friend....
and now that she's getting management privs.. i feel like she's turned around and for my kindness rewarded me with thinking i'm just nice enough for her to walk all over. well...i've been stewing on this for a while. quite a while... and i want to tell her all this to her face. i want to confront her. but how do you confront someone who is in managerial type spot? i might tell the store manager and then tell him i wanna talk to her and if he can give me tips or suggestions. but...
last night, she was there and doing her normal thing. and lately at work, when stuff happens, i'll be like thank you Jesus. I am more than overcomer thu you. and i tell myself i can do all thigns thru Christ. then.. i suddenly felt this move in my spirit to hug her. omg..lol. so i did it. just like that. She just stepped back for a second. and I saw this look in her eyes. and the normal phony look that's usually there left. I know it touched her. and I guess she thought I felt bad for her or somethign and was apologizing. and, I told her that i just really felt in the spirit that she needed a hug. So i gave her one. but...
afterwards... i went off to straighten my area of the store. and I suddenly felt this release in my soul. and by hugging her, i was able to overcome a lot of those feelings i've been having. i still want to talk to her; but a lot of the angst i had in my over it just slipped away. and... i kind of feel even tho it still needs resolving how i've forgiven her in my heart. And, that forgiving felt soooo gooood. man. I just wanted to share this story because i feel it's a testimony on how we're supposed to overcome people's evil with good. and how that good can really do things we don't see.
 Graceangel · Fri Oct 08, 2004 @ 05:23pm · 0 Comments |
