I wish there was something I could do to be more useful. I mean, everyone else has some way that they help out. What do I do? I just hang around...
Maybe she's right. Maybe I am useless. No. No! I can't think that. I just have to work harder. And I've got to figure out a way I can help. I don't want to be useless. But what can I do? I can't fight or use magic, so I'd be no use in protecting anything. I don't know if there's anything else I can do and I don't know if there's anything else they need done... I'm just... Me. Olette. The girl next door, pretty much. To be useful... I'd have to do some major training. There's no one to train me, though. I mean, I'm sure someone could, but everyone's so busy. I don't want to bother them.
I went to a party that was supposed to be a sleepover earlier, but I left. Well, ran away. They didn't really want me to leave. But I had no intention of being their toy!
Tomorrow's a half-day at school, but I have to stay after anyway for Romeo and Juliet rehearsal. I don't really want to do it, considering the fact that one of the people who decided I was his toy is going to be there, but I have to. Maybe making that bet wasn't the smartest thing in the world, but nothing else would have worked! The only thing that really works when she's like that is appealing to her "wilder" side. I'm pretty sure she thinks I'm going to fail. Well, I'll show her! I'm going to win this bet. I am.
On another note. I wrote about some headaches I'd been having awhile ago. They've gotten to be normal, but earlier today one suddenly got really, really bad. I think it was about 7:15-ish? I think at some point I blacked out, 'cause I remember talking to someone at one point and then the next thing I remember is staring up at the ceiling from the ground. I wonder if something happened... I hope not.
I hope Minx is okay. She ran off right when I got back to the mansion - and she looked like she was in pretty bad shape. It looked like... I don't know... Like something just broke.
It always seems like something is happening. It makes it so it's never boring, but at the same time, I wish we could go one day - one day! - without something major happening. I mean... Are we all just cursed to suffer or something? If it's not one thing it's another! I want one day where we can all be at peace. Is that so much to ask for?
On another note... Some of the people working with me on Romeo and Juliet want me to get an instant messaging system so they can get ahold of me easier. I dunno what to make my screen name, though. I don't want it to be something stupid like 'Olette'. Since I know some people have a habit of writing in others' journals... Does anyone have any suggestions?
Well... There's more, but I think I've written enough and I don't want to add to the drama that's going on anymore than I already have. So, I bid thee farewell, journal.
...Ugh. I'm even starting to WRITE like that now.
Love, Olette.
a responsible girl · Thu Mar 01, 2007 @ 06:16am · 0 Comments |