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Wow
Today was crazy. I went to, well I was supposed to go to Chinatown but I went to the Gallery instead because my brother was going and I wanted to go with him (he's not my real brother, I just love him that much-actually a little bit more). Anyway, we fed each other & shared a drink and then I went to his house even though I probably wasn't supposed to...two of my other friends were there and they were giggling like stupid schoolgirls at us but I don't care. Why am I putting this in a journal entry again? Oh yeah, because I was going to tell him today but I decided I couldn't do it especially since he wasn't even there at lunch when I planned to tell him. I felt sick when I thought I was going to do it and was so ready to vomit...So after that I planned to just tell him when I see him on Monday but I really don't wanna screw things up between us so I decided not to say anything. I'll even try to act a little more normal. I know I must have seemed hyper because I was nervous, especially at his house. His mom scared me for a second but then she seemed really nice ^^ I think she was kinda wondering why I was there and why he didn't say anything about having company ahead of time. I couldn't understand everything they said(they were speaking in Spanish for a little while)but I understood enough to know that she was questioning him about me and later about the money she must have given him(he gave 5 dollars to a hobo). After that I tuned it out thinking it was kinda rude to listen in like that even though it was good practice for my Spanish comprehension ^^Anyway, I feel better having gotten that out now. I feel almost normal again and I think I can stop acting all stupid about it. He seemed kinda nervous though and like he wanted me out of his house like, right away. I know I probably made them both uncomfortable but I had nothing to do and I was gonna leave but he asked me if I wanted to come in and I didn't want to say no..honestly I wanted to see what his house is like and I really like it ^^ The environment is relaxed and I felt almost at home except for the fact that I wasn't, and I was scared like hell. Alright, I'm done now-I'm sure this is the longest entry I've ever typed. Please ignore any spelling or gramatical errors of any kind, I don't feel like going back to fix them...
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