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Wow, today wasn't crappy like yesterday. But god I've been feeling weird. XP All today has been, I dunno how to describe it...like craving, or want...I dunno. First in orchestra, with Tania, god she's so awesome...I wanna stand up for her more, you know? I wanna be a better friend, closer...and then I get to spanish, with Ciara...and she's so awesome to. She's really outgoing, and doesn't care what other's think. She knows what she wants, and will do what it takes to get it. ^^; I like her, very strong willed and thoughtful at the same time, it's weird. But I dunno, I wish I were more like her, so I could not seem like such a loser around her. But then again, I am me, and don't really want to be anyone else...ugh so confusing. XP And then I get to Michael...god I love him sooo much. Whenever I'm around him, I have to hold back the strongest urge to run up and hug him. He's just so easy to be around, he's so sweet, caring, and funny...just really awesome, seriously. I know it sounds stupid and immature, but I wanna play and mess around and talk and joke and laugh with him. I wish so much that it wouldn't be weird for me to hug him, he's my best friend and I love him so much...we've both admitting to liking each other, but even so...would he still like me the same way if he knew I was bi? I really, REALLY hope so...