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Good news! My grandma is getting out of the hospital tomorrow! She has been told that Carleena called her an Alcoholic she wasn't too impressed and yet she didn't get as mad as I thought she would. We went to her house yesterday and cleaned because she has been in the hospital for a month and stuff so it would be really kinda messy. We also had to move some furniture so that she can get around better with a walker. When Carleena was informed that we did that she said, "You mean to say, Theresa actually got off her a** to do that?" For those of you that don't know, my mom has a muscular Dystrophy, which is the slow decrease in muscle. My mom cannot raise her arms higher than you bend at the elbow, she has a drop foot (basically a foot that curves in when she walks) that makes her very clumsy, her shoulder are hunched and it makes her posture bad, and her legs just get weeker and weeker. My grandma said, "She has a muscle problem, Carleena. Would you like her legs and arms?" Carleena said, "Well no, but it just seems she has it made." Well, I think that Carleena has it as well her signs just have came about yet. The reason I think this is because Muscular Dystrophy affects your mouth posture. It causes your lips to not curve as you might to whistle. Carleena's lips are like my moms. So I think that in due time Carleena will know exactly how it feels to be like my mother and regret those words. I cannot believe the b***h would say that. On a good note, she says that she has the papers to give the land back. Though, I doubt it considering all of the s**t she has pulled. I'm sure a day before we are to sign them she will say, "Well, you did this to me <inserts some 'evil deed'> so I cannot sign that." Well I would like to also talk about one other important event that has happend in this month. There is a guy on my Yahoo! he is really nice and his name is Andrew. Through the times of Dakota I needed someone that wasn't really a part of the situation to talk to. Andrew was there for me and he gained my trust, I let him call me and I started to think a lot of him. At first he was my best friend then our feelings for eachother increased. One day he said that he really cared a lot about me not only as a friend but something more. Then we just got more and more into things and we fell more and more in love and right now, I love Andrew so much. I care so much about him. He is my best friend and I care so much about him. The only thing is, my parents don't know. I would give anything for them to know, except, care, and understand. I'm not afriad of what will happen to me. I'm afraid of what will happen to us. If they find out they might make it to where I cannot talk to him ever again that would be miserable for me and I would miss him so much. I just don't think I can take that risk. I don't think I can do that... He wants me too because he hates feeling hidden but I hate hiding him! I mean he says something funny and I want to go tell my mom or something. I want to be like, "Haha, guess what Andrew said it was freaking hilarious!" But, I can't. If my parents find out on their own they will be like, "You had a fun time hiding this from us and you thought it was funny that you didn't get caught." That isn't the case though. I would do anything to be able to tell them without having the worry of losing him in the end! crying