IF YOU HAVE SECRET, DON'T BE AFRAID TO LET IT OUT
I wish I could be happy without having to have a boyfriend.
All the things I used to enjoy are now meaningless.
I have ditched all of my friends because I see no point in hanging out with people I don't like anymore.
But, I could never leave my boyfriend. He's the only thing that ever makes me happy anymore. He's the only person who makes me feel good about myself.
Without him... I'd die. I'd have to go out and kill myself because no one else cares anyways.
I always feel so alone. If Ken isn't around then I'm so depressed. And now his Guardian is trying to break us up.
He keeps grounding Ken for stupid things. Like, stuff that has happened months ago. Things that aren't even Ken's fault...
I hate being alone. If I don't have people around me I can't feel good about myself. And some times, even when people are around me, I still feel bad. I need just the right people around me to feel welcomed. To feel accepted.
That's all I've ever wanted. Acceptance. I want to be accepted by my family and my friends without having to pretend to be someone else. But, I don't really fit in with any certain group. I don't like sports so, I can't hang out with a lot of the guys. I don't like anime or manga very much anymore so, I can't hangout with the anime freaks. I don't act like a normal stoner so, I can't hangout with those guys, either. I can't even hangout with the outcasts for Christ's sake!
I'd just like to know what's wrong with me. Why am I so different from everyone else? Why can't I be happy? Why can't I be normal?
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