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Oh god... What have I gotten myself into this time..?
So... I might be pregnant... What did I do this time? How could I have thought that everything would be okay? I'm slowly realizing that my whole life could be turned upside down all because I'm afraid of being alone? Well, it wasn't much of a life to begin with, but it was a life. At least I had something. One thing I'm really greatful for is Ken. He's the one who gets me through. Without him I'd have jumped a long time ago. Right off the Louise Bridge. Well, at least now I know I'll never be alone. I'll have my kid.
I'm not sure if I am pregnant for sure, though. But, I sure am acting like it. I'm going for another test on Thursday. I would go tomorrow, but I want Ken with me. And I would go the next day instead, but he still won't be able to come. He has a doctors tomorrow and his brothers Hearing is on Wednesday... I wish I could have gone today. I had to visit my Grandpa Mike for our birthday after school today, though. And then I had to go exchange a shirt. So, I'm going on Thursday because I'm not going without Ken. And he can't make me. He wants me to go tomorrow. I cannot go tomorrow or Wednesday. I don't want to look like one of those slutty hookers who have to go constantly because they have to keep checking if they're pregnant... I mean, I go often enough to look like one of those girls, but I'm just being careful and I always have Ken with me so that I don't look like one of those girls.
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