I tried being happy today. I really did. And I think... I succeeded, for a little bit. No one at the ASA suspected anything was wrong, but that was probably 'cause I didn't stay there that long.
School was different, though. Bri kept trying to figure out why I didn't talk much and I flinched whenever anyone touched me. Now I wish my guy friends at school weren't so touchy-feely. Honestly... Isn't it usually girls who hug each other on sight? But nooo. I swear... The first time it happened today, when Caleb practically glomped me? I almost punched him. And it took me ages to calm down. Even Kakeru noticed that I was pretty on-edge today.
Stupid blondes with nothing else to do in literature class but stare at people...
I'm going to stay home tonight.
I need to get better control. I've gotta get used to masking what I feel, you know? Then I won't be so visibly on-edge. And then people won't know something's wrong with me.
But... how do I do that?
a responsible girl · Fri May 04, 2007 @ 03:32am · 0 Comments |