• " your eyes have tears in them." he spoke softly his vioce was nothing now. not the usuall sensation of flying the adrenaline through my veins was gone. my life ended." you would be crying too if your only joy and escape from life is leaving you!" i snapped it back.
    his hand traced my tears all the way down to my cheek. i was now nothing. my life meant nothing if i couldn't have him. my life was already a pain to live. i mean the acholic step dad who strikes at me all the time. or my drug addict mother who left me and tryed to shoot me various occations.
    now this! " im sorry..... bye clare." i stared at hime until his feet started to move and were out the door. by my side was my only friend now chichi my cat. she purred and licked me but i was dead now. on the floor i lay listening to the soothing rain pour. " you b***h clare im gunna kill you!" oh no that ******** guy was back getting ready to hurt me. but i am gone. rushing along i grabbed my things. jumped out onto the busy street. and just ran. ran ran ran ran ran ran and ran. when i awoke from my running trance. i was in a clearing. at the egde was a cliff. my feet were awkward moving.

    one long fall later


    the noise was thriling. people all around me screaming my name. then there was just black. i never knew how delighted i would be to die. why is dying so much easier thann living? even in heaven i still try to figure it out.