• My dearest love,
    I’m writing this because I can’t bring myself to say the words to your face. I’m scared. I’m scared I’ll get cancer and not be able to live my life the way I want to. I’m scared that I’ll confide something to you and you’ll reject me. I’ve been wearing this mask for so long, I don’t know how to take it off. Those words you keep telling me. “I love you.” Those words no longer have their magical effect on me. They are just words. That’s all they are to me. I don’t think I can love anyone. I’m happy you chose me but I never was ready for a relationship. Or at least, that was what I kept telling myself when I first met you. I’ve been through hardships I hope you never have to go through. I hope you learn to forgive your dad. He is still your dad no matter how much he makes you hate him, you should still learn to forgive him. I’m working on that with my mom. I still love my mom and I’m trying to make things right with her. Its hard but I believe I can try to patch things up with my mom. I’m trying to say that I don’t know if I love you back and if I don’t, I’m just happy I spent so much time with you. I hope you have a happy life. Please, do one thing for me, live on. If we do break up don’t get depressed, try to just go on with your life. Please don’t try to find me. I can sense my time with this life is coming near. Whoever you choose for your lifemate, I hope he/she makes you happy.

    Goodbye forever,
    Emily


    -that night-
    Emily looked at the house she and Anthony bought for the last time. She would never feel his gentle touch, his goofy smile, and that deep voice that just draws you in. With his picture in mind, she went back to her grandma's house. Since someone else lived in the actual house, she went to the little clearing where she had spent several hours playing by herself. When she got to the cleaing, she went to the swing her grandpa had put up for his own kids. When she sat down, she started swinging back and forth.

    That same exact spot is where police found her body slumped in the swing a week later. She died of lung cancer. She knew she had cancer since she planned on marrying him two years ago. She had refused treatment telling the doctors that it was a sign for to pass on.