• I was waiting in the hospital, for his news. My tears are slowly pouring on to the floor. Why am i crying so much. I hated him to death, but he is still human. The legends says if you hear banging noises its a sign that someone is going to die. I can hear it, over the chatter of docters and nurses and the machines.

    I shut out the noise covering the dog like ears whispering "He wont die, he wont die, he cant he promised." i open my eyes and there was another pair of shoes and notice that they are the docters. I bolt up in a rush then i look closer, that face i have seen it before too many times....

    I can finally let go of the tears as i fall to the floor on my knees and its cold touch is nothing compared to my now cold and dead heart just as dead he was or soon to be, i rush into the room in time to tell him how i felt as tried in the car before he got out and was smashed by the car, before the fight, before he said "I hate you.." and i screamed with anger "i hate you to!!!"

    I barge into the room gasping for breath hoping it was a dream the moniter is flat lined i am stunned and consumed with guilt....

    I scream as loud as I can hoping he can here me...
    "I LOVE YOU KETSUKI, DONT GO!!!"
    Falling to my knees as i continue to cry and whimper. I wanted to hear I love you to,
    but i dont just dead silence as the long and terrible noise of the moniter is etched into my mind like a scar i would keep forever.

    The fear of being alone has just started and i am the main victim....