• I've been thinking about this for a while. Contemplating my options. But now i must choose. To stay with the one I love. To be selfish and daring.
    'What if we're caught?' I thought to myself.
    'He'd surely lose his job.' I thought first. 'But not just that, he could get arrested.' I thought. ' Im barely 16 and a half, hes in his late 20s.' I stared at my wall. 'We can't show are love.' 'We can't go out to the movies or dinner.' i thought. 'Are love is a secret.' 'we can't be called a couple can we?' I mused.
    "It feels like we're just ******** buddies." "What am I to you? A lover or a toy?" i asked the air only to continue, "Your boyfriend or adorable student?"
    My chest clenched. "I truely love you" I whispered. " i must break are bond" I decided.
    The next day i changed my class schedule to a different history teacher.
    I avoided my lover, to cowardly to face him. 'It terrible, i don't wish to leave him.'I cried in my head. But it was inevitable, "It's for the best." i told myself. 'Then why does it hurt so much.' my mind echoed.
    After two weeks of avoiding him, Mr.Dawson or Elliot is what i called him the nights we spent together, was able to trap me afterschool.
    "Rey why have you been avoiding me?" He asked me, hurt evident in his voice.
    My voice caught in my throat, I could only look away. "Rey look a me for Gods sake!!!" He yelled in frustration.(sorry if that affended you in any way)I snapped my head back to look at him.
    'I have to do this, come on Rey!' i screamed at myself. "Im done, we're through." I said coldly. 'im sorry' I thought. " It feels like all we ever do is have sex." " I need more then a few words of love and a gentle kiss, something real." I told him. "But this is real, we are real." He said taking my hand. " No it's not, we can't go out, we're a secret, we pretend to not care for one another in front of otheres." I said emotionlessly. " It' dangerous and im not worth it, everything can be broken if we're caught." "So no more." I said removing my hand from his grasp. "We're done, finished, find someone else, someone better." I told him.
    Mr.Dawson clenched his fist, a painful glare in his eyes. He looked so hurt, it was hard to put up the front; but i did. He moved from my path and i walked away. The last thing Elliot said to me was " I love you." and mine, as i walked away from the one i loved so much that i'd give him up "Good bye" I said loud enough for him to hear me.
    "Im sorry, I love you too." I said under my breathe.
    And that was the end, we were no more.