• I'm a fool. To think I would ever say such a thing to the one person dearest to me. Because of my stupidity I may lose her. I just feel like absolute s**t right now. I don't deserve such a wonderful friend like her. I wish I could take back everything. I wish none of it ever happened. I just Hope To God that I don't drive her away from me. I wanna be able to see her smiling face once more, but even that is a hopeless dream. I hope that she can forgive me. and that we can move on as people. I have to be strong. I have to brave the storm long enough to see the end. If I can't do that How can I be able to face her? My dearest friend, my most precious friend, Please forgive me for what I have done to you. I meant no harm in my words. Every word I've spoken to you was the truth and nothing of it was ever false. I have always loved you since the moment I opened up to you. I've always wanted to be more than just friends but the bond that we have together will now and always be just that. A bond of friendship, and because of that I made a promise to myself. "To love someone is to put his or her own feelings before your own." As long as you were happy with whomever you were with, as long as you still had that beautiful smile, then that will b enough for me. I will love you from a distance and be content with where I am. I will not chase after you for my own selfish reasons. I will never do anything to hurt you in any way. This I vow on the lives of everyone who has helped mold me into the young man that I am today.