• Still a mystery,

    I can’t figure out;

    Race home from work,

    Where life is without.
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    I race to see you,

    And hold you to me;

    My mind says you’re there,

    And my heart won’t see.
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    I open the door,

    It’s still a surprise:

    You’re not there,

    And tears fill my eyes.
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    I need someone,

    Or call on the phone;

    But nothing breaks the silence,

    Of these walls made of stone.
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    I punish myself,

    By refusing to eat:

    Depression is silent,

    I hear my heart beat.
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    Where can I go,

    Or should I stay:

    Shy to choose,

    In bed I lay.
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    Time will pass,

    And the dark sets in;

    Laying there wishing,

    I could still touch your skin.
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    Lying there hurting,

    I wish I could die;

    Missing you so much,

    Again I start to cry.
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    Sometimes I wonder,

    If you even know;

    The way that I need you,

    Would you still go.
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    I can’t sleep now,

    Again a long night;

    Are you this lonely,

    Do you share in my fright.
    *****