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It's a rush
So delicious; malnutritious--
Such a rush!
Erratic heart beat
Like a drum-- Ba-bum--
Coursing ice inside
So numb
Sounds like trouble
Inside, outside--
All around!
My trouble bubble,
So precious, like
A snowglobe, rubble
Shattered on the floor...
Oops.
That's all-- "Whoops!"
My bad! (I'm bad.)
Didn't mean it--
To tie your brain in
Loops!
Not for knots!
You love-me-not
A lot, you love me-- Not.
For naught...
Dig a hole
For me now
Right into me-- Not my chest!
Trough the ear canal-- POW!
Six feet in!
Should I take a bow?
It's toxic! It's loud--
This tiny whisper! How...?
Roaring in my icy-numbness
Crooning, swooning,
Moo-ning
Tearing me down; make me less
Is it this?
Did you want it? I confess--
It appeals to me, this mess
Glorious, sticcato!
Quid pro quo
My sanity, your vanity;
My high for your low
But-- you know--
I digress
I guess.
Oh, do you get it?
No? Would you try?
No? I'm Two cryptic
Too sly
Too for two for you to eye
So, will you let it
Tear me-- Down!
And get sick
Get ready for--
This next trick
You'll flip!
Ick!
I swear, I've got this
N-nervous tick...
Tock--
Like a clock!--
Watch me
Move ahead and
Block--
You a**!
Get off on my sass
Tick-tock, get ready! c**k
(The gun, of course!)
Listen up! Lock and load and
Lock me up
Pull my tri--
Are you still reading?
My lord...
You're bored.
Well!
Here's the
Show-me-off
Grande finale?
You'll never know--
You won't
Hide me (Seek me)
Fun house, my mirrors--Oh!
Down
The slide, Down
The hole
Look at this!
I'm white as snow!
Fluttering veins,
My shying, lying butterfly-- Pulse
To and fro
Rock my boat, making me--
Sick! No--
I'm making you--
Sick! With
My sick?
Is that so?
Pitter-patter, patter-pat-- Woah...
Hold the horses!
I think
This might be the E--
Well, maybe not,
You know me! (Not.)
Such a drama queen
Such a whore--
For your attention.
Standing
At attention for you
To see! You see,
My brain has gone
All Military
But it doesn't help
The tangles or the angles
Or the YOU-HATE-ME-LOVE-ME knots
It just...
Shoots me down
So free--You see--
When no one sees
I wanted you to see,
To be!
To stop me--
But you flee the flea
You flee
My flee
Go ahead and go now
Curtain call! We all fall
Down!
And, really, this is how
The best go down, with
A bang--
A crash--
A pow--
A loud, piercing flatline
My battlecry--
I cry, and--
"Ugh, Not again."
Yeah, again. And again.
And again and again and--
I'm a b***h
I itch
For that thin, red line
Catatonic, in my mind
Tick-tock, tock-tick-- Again?
(I'm so repetitive)
And BOOM!
(Dynamite! Tick, tick, tick...)
There it goes!
The metaphor!
My funny, oh-so-punny
House mirrors breaking
At half-past four
Reflecting nothing, any--
More or
Back, and you and me, we go:
"No more," not more!
Tell me there's no more!
God, this thing's a bore. A--
Greedy whore.
I'm ALWAYS a bore.
I'm too hot to handle;
Too deep to-- Cross
My Dear Heart,
I hope to die
Before I let you in
And lie. I lie!
I swear--
There
Is truth within and
In my plainest words...
Lost
In a rush and roar
Without the Lion
I have no core
"No more."
I'm more
The numbers will tell you my score
In this game--
And I'm losing it.
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Title:
Step Aside, Mr. Wordplay
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Artist:
Ragdoll Complex
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Description:
My first poem in years, overflowing with sarcasm, double meanings, ambiguous punctuation, and lots of bitterness. Maybe.
It has no title. On FB, the note is a quote from Apathy And Other Small Victories, "The world is your oyster, but you're allergic to shellfish."
Subjects include verbal abuse, dissociation, self-hatred, plausible sanity, horny bastards, eating disorder(s), and a very sad, sick person.
All capitalizations, periods, commas, and other punctuation is intentional.
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Date:
11/17/2009
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Tags:
untitled
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eatingdisorder
serious
sarcasm
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