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How is this a love? How can I feel this way?
What is it that has put me in this horrorible but lovely emotion?
It makes me feel all good inside with no idea or imagination.
And I don't want it to disappear. I want it in my hands or in my arms
forever.
Please don't let it leave me, o' lord.
Forbid me or whatever you want, just don't take it away from me!
Please don't put me into sadness again.
Don't throw me into madness.
For you will lose sight of your precious child, me.
Why is it a sin to love?
Don't you tell us to love our parents?
What difference is it, if we love another?
To love and give them the same respect?
To also make them feel like they are special and precious, something that a parent can't reviel to us sometimes?
Is that wrong?
I now know something that I finally come to realize.
You must know that when you love another, that "love" won't stay.
It is bound to make one desire a love from another in hopes that it would be more new or a more
advanced love.
You don't want me to be hurt, I know.
I try so hard, lord. It is what I "need" because I want it so badly.
Can't I show them my true self?
Would you think that they would love me for who I am?
And not who they think I could be?
Can you see that much in me?
Isn't there something you may be missing or not understanding?
Why can't I have their love?
Is this greed? I feel so bad for myself.
I am acting so foolish.
There is no way that is possible for me to actually have that
person.
My love, my everything.
Even though I may dream of that person, that person is so far away.
Lord? If I dream of that person and keep on sleeping, can I be with that person forever?
Would you allow it?
Would you be happy to see me happy for just a short time?
You must think I am crazy for feeling this way or for telling you this foolish thing I have to say....and feel.
But I really do love that person. Please let that person love me!
PLEASE!
If it will take my whole being to have that person's love then I will use it until there is nothing left of me.
Nothing to see or feel anymore.
I will be forever empty without that person beside me, without the slightest sound of their voice, and without knowing that they ever know
that I exist but the main thing is that I know with all my heart that they can feel me
and my every thought about them.
If only just alittle, they know I care. Thank you for hearing me and my desired plee and forgive me. cry