I told you I liked you a lot! Now I feel as if I love you! But you don't like me at all you a**! I wish you understood I wished you cared! I love you, but you give a damn about me! Why?! You understand what pain is, yet you still seem to be like everyone else. I love you and I wish you at least liked me back. Why Zachary? Why? Why the hell am I going through this for you? All this pain, misery, sorrow, out of placement...all these feelings. I've tried to change for you, rid my emotions, but you don't care. Why? Why have you forsaken me? I want to be with you, but why can't you be more open-minded? Just because I'm creepy you have to... I can't understand these feelings I have for you, why are they so strong? Why can't you accept me? I don't understand the origin of my feelings. Why?! How much longer are you going to keep me in the dark? It's true hell loving you... "Another days has been laid to waste because of my disgrace...I've given up! I'm sick of feeling! Is there nothing you can say?! Take this all away! …tell me what the ******** is wrong with me?" Sure at school I'm out of place, I don't belong, but I don't care, I can't stop thinking of you. Why don't you care? I can't stop thinking of you, everyone knows, they won't ever stop teasing. This is hard for me to ask of you since you all ready like someone else. Please, why won't you give me a chance? My looks, my behavior, anything else wrong with me? There's no such thing as a perfect person, personality and appearance wise. If make-up didn't exist then so many people would just be horribly ugly (appearance wise.). It's odd how I don't like you for you appearance. "'My insides turn to ash.' Pause. 'so slow.'" I was all right telling you my feelings, but now I just can't stand it...all this pain...all these thoughts. "I know I love you, but does that mean I have to walk on water" "So I wait tonight hoping you'll turn around saying that-" "...for my pride and my promise" How much do I have to change till you recognize to the extent I'll do for you. I want you, but you'll just push me away... "Life is brief, young maiden; fall in love;
before the crimson bloom fades from you lips
before the tides of passion cool within your hips,
for those of you who know no tomorrow."
I Wish You Darkness · Sat May 26, 2007 @ 02:38am · 3 Comments |