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Mood- Neutral/Emo
Time- 11:18 PM

Where do I go from here?

What have I done?

Everytime you come near me,
I act like a fool.
I try to act normal,
But I'm being uncool.

You made me feel so special inside.
But when I fell for you,
My feelings were too strong to hide.

You may think I'm a little pathetic,
But I can't help that I'm not always excentric.

Where do I go from here?
Not being with you is my fear.
But whenever I'm around you,
I always feel so blue.

What happened to what we were before?
We used to laugh and talk the few minutes away.
But after my feelings for you started to change,
You starting treating me like I was a whore.

I realize that people change.
First their heart,
And then their age.

So,
Was I really so incinificant?
Or,
In the end we were just too different?

I still have the green hat that you wore on our class trip.
Everyone liked it so much they couldn't stop wearing it.
Hardly anyone knew that it was actually mine.
But I got a picture of you wearing it,
So I guess I'm just fine.

I sound a bit obsessive, don't I?
I guess all things come with a price.
But I've paid my dues with interest.
So why does it seem like I'm practically making a sacrifice?

When will this story finally end?
Why can't I just end this chapter?
How much more time will I have to spend?
On something I can never have.

My words may not make sense.
And they seem to go nowhere.
But they're the only things I can share,
To anyone who will care.