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At first glance it seems that things have yet to change.
But just one step closer and everyone can see that this has been rearranged.
I used to walk next to you, but now I am forced behind.
You used to tell me the truth, but now you're always lying.

People knew us because we were all so close, what they wanted to be.
But I turn my back for one second and you're already stabbing me.
And slowly the open wound is filled with an emptiness so great that it breaks me down.
Why not just tell me you didn't want me around?

I understand that me leaving was not the best thing to do.
But you can't blame me for you staying home and the s**t you can't do.
If you're happy then forgive me for thinking you deserved more.
Forgive me for thinking that you could get so much further from that door.

The door that led back to the place I used to call home.
I left that place, but I never left you guys alone.
So why turn on me now saying I have pushed you away?
When I am the one trying to call each and every ******** day.

You guys have stabbed in the back and now you're filling me with an emptiness.
Slowly filling me till I over flow and there will be nothing left.
I am not the person that I used to be and it's because of you.
All because you can't stick to what you promised to.

So your words are hollow as much as your touch.
And in the end it is my fault for trusting you so much.
But things happen for a reason right?
I left that place for a reason, but you don't understand maybe one day you might.

Thank you so much for the pain and the lies they hurt so good.
No one could quite hurt me like you two could.
You're the greatest and worst friends a person could have.
So hey call me crazy because I still can't let go of what we had.