I intend this to be a fairly large entry soooo-It will keep me busy a while.
Well lets start with drama caused by friend-on or off gaia:
First bit-Ash, Well there was alot that happened with Ash recently which lead to me giving her one last chance which she blew today.
Before this last chance, her and I were fighting often, and I grew tired of it. So one night I needed her because my Mother over the short time of drama I will explain later has grown suicidal, My sister-whom I constantly worry about was devoloping her self-harm behavior such as drugs,sex,and also emotional problems, My Grandmother(Nana is what I call her) may have lung cancer-which is what my Grandfather died of-and my Other Grandma(Bama) whom we are living with may potentially foreclose withing the next two months due to her bing in an adjustable loan. SO Naturally I just wanted to talk to my best friend, so I asked if we could talk at nine, and she said sure. Then she said she did not feel well-I knew she was ignoring me to talk to her other friend Laurencia(who is pretty cool) but I felt I was going through issues and needed her there, just like when my Grandfather passed away though-She made it a situation, turned it on me and became a huge b***h. I mean she said vicious things to me, so I called it quits, took my stuff on gaia back(well sorta) and all that Jazz, now tonight we were talking and I called her to talk to her-and we started discussing this anime called Red Garden of which I enjoy-so she decided to go check it out on Anime on demand-I asked her not too because she gets super sucked in and I wanted to talk to her-so after asking her not to watch it I heard it in the background, and later she got snappy so I demanded nicely for her to stop watching it-so basically we got into an argument I hung up because I am tired of dealing with that bullshit.
Kaitaia: I fell madly in love with this girl-and almost felt used by her, I felt she was taking my infatuation and using it against me-for example she would mention a gaia item she like and knowing I would get it for her-I did just that. She played with my emotions saying stuff like She would look better on my bed than my Dog and s**t like that-I guess its my fault for falling for it-but I decided to step away from that relationship recently also.
Lizard:Well Lizard and I are over, I am sad to say. But freinds come and go, so it was bound to happen.
My Sister-Kylea:That little girl is such a big chapter in my life-I love her so much and I worry all the time because she has such self destructive behaviors. She is so far into drugs-sex-fighting-getting her way that her vision of reality is warped, he and I dont share the same mother which is why we are so different. She grew up he mom asking her as a little girl "Do Mommies tits look alright-do you think she will find a man?" so Kylea finds this behavior normal. As of right now after running away and causing so much unnecessary Drama she is in a 10 week rehab program-I hope she finally sees what she is doing to herself.
Too heated to write anymore-finish it later.
VaughnZ · Sat Mar 22, 2008 @ 02:58am · 0 Comments |