Mike who i consider my family, has finally left for freaking boot camp for the Navy. I hate this so much I'm going to miss him & I can't stop crying. He is one of the few people I know I can trust with everything & will always be there for me whenever I need a shoulder to cry on. I know I have my other friends & they will always be there for me but I'm going to miss him so much it kills me. He's dating my little sister & I don't know how I can deal with her depression when my own is coming back hard core. This is going to be one of the hardest 2 months of my life cause I'm not going to have him to turn to whenever I have a problem. One of my ex's still harrasses me to the point where I want to end it but just killing myself & a couple days ago Mike yelled at him & told him that as long as he's around that he better not ******** with me anymore or he will kick his a** & I'm scared once he finds out that Mike left he's going to start up with harrassing me again & I don't know if I could handle that kind of mental pressure. I keep breaking down & I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to make through the next 2 months without help. Even though he isn't anything more then my brother my heart just got broken. If it wasn't for his parents I wouldn't be sitting at my computer desk crying my eye's out missing one of the very few things I have that I'm extreamly thankful for. He has been there through everything that has happened & he can put up with the stupid crap I dish out & keep me in check with reality & I do the same for him. I'm going to miss him more then anything thing & he always helped me whenever i needed it. Mike always can put me in a better mood cause all I would have to do was look at his face & I would just start laughing cause I know that he would always look out for me. Things are going to be so wierd with him not being here where he is needed the most with his friends & his girlfriend. I hate the fact that his parents forced him into the Navy. His mom was giving him crap about hurting his little brother & she was the one who is responsible for him joining in the first place. She's also complaing about how he's leaving & it's her fault, so she's being a total hipocrite. God I'm going to miss him & I just hope he comes home the same idiot that I've grown to know & love as a brother & that he's safe. He better write me when he's gone cause if he doesn't I'll kick his a**. cry sad
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