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What am I going to do? I miss you so much, I need you in my life, to hold && to touch, you used to be there whenever sky's were grey, to help me through when i was feelin astray, now I have nothin but lonelyness & years, you have me feelin as if I could cry these tears for years, I need you, I used to not be able to imagine myself without you but now I can because that's exactly what I'm goin through. To get your love back I'd do anything, I'd give my life for you, without you my heart is split down the middle, it's in two. I used to be us but now it's just me && a lonely abyss, just like Ray J I want my 'One Wish', taking your love away from me is about as good as killing me, but I took it from me, myself. For you, I'll leave everything, I wish you could just see, how much of a part you are of me. I don't cry these tears because I pity myself, I cry them because I know what I've done to you, I know what I've done to my heart, I've hidden it in lonelyness just like a ninja in stealth. To just be able to hold you in my arms again, I'd give up anything;; I'd turn down the sexiest ***** in the world, I'd walk away from any amount of wealth, I'd let go of my good health, I'd walk miles just to see you, I'll do whatever it takes, I need you in this life of mine. Without you it makes no sense, I'ts a mess && all I do is cry, I can't think straight && my world is filled with hate && the person I hate the most is myself for being stupid && losing you. Without you I'll never be happy, I can't go 5 minutes without thinkin bouht you, or thinking about how I can't live without you, or perhaps thinking about how my heart's split in two or about the last time I talked to my boo. Sometimes I sit by the phone && wait, just hopin && wishing that you would call me, but I know that won't happen cus you cut me loose && now I'm floating in midair lonely && free. All I know is that I don't want anyone else on this earth, I need you, I want you, Your the other half of me, Right now I'm not in one piece, I'm incomplete. I wish I could go back in time && change so much;; buht I know I can't && unfortunately I'm out of luck. I try to cry but my tears run dry, for I've already cried so much, I can't cry anymore, my mind && soul is as empty && cold as a brand new hardwood floor, for your the one who used to keep me warm. I don't care what anyone says, I love you && I always will, you don;t have to believe me because I know that truth, when I said I love you it was far from a lie, It was one of the truest things I've said in my entire life;; My heart && soul have both died inside since that night when you said those things, I love you so much, your the only one I need, I want to be with you, I want to bare your kids. It kills me inside to know that I don't even have a chance wit you anymore, I feel like nothing but a worthless whore. A lot of things hurt me but what hurts the most is knowing what I've done to you, is knowing that I won't be able to proudly declare that your my man, my baby or my boo. It's knowin that each day that passes is another day I don't have you here to hold, it's another day my heart is cold, another day I bare the weight of this heartache, it's unbareable, It's another day I cry these endless tears, but that's far from over, I'll cry them for yearsz, what hurts the most is knowing that eventually you'll move on && find another girl who's better than me && forget everything that happened, you'll forget all about me && the fact that I'll never be happy, because I'm empty && hollow inside without my baby, I've broken your trust && I'll never get that back. Late at night I cry myself to sleep, I like it then cus'z it's the only time your not on my mind, but then you come && seep into my dreams, I need you, I've said it so many times, I can;t count but the time it'll take to get rid of this heartache is 10 times that amount, I want you back in my life, cus'z without you in it I can't even sleep, I stay up all night && think about ways to get you back, or things to say, I'm losing my mind with each passing day, if I was to have my way we'd be off together in a far away place like Bombay, but I know I don't && I never will, baby I don't know what to do without you, your like a pill you numb me so I won't have the pain, but without you it's in full affect, I can't do anything, I can barely think because your on my mind, without you here kissing me on the neck, or giving me that hot, rough sex, or telling me what we gone do next, I'm a complete && utter ******** wreck.
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