The thing that really scares me more than getting caught; its the fact
of Loosing you. That's whats really going to scare me more
than anything. I love you more than anything. I'm
not going to let this one thing bring me down.
Your more important than that. Must I remind you
everyday that you'll always be on my mind.
I love you alright? Never forget that.
Your going to make me cry.
I'm not going to let anything get in between us.
Not now;not ever.
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It's alright to cry...It's alright to worry. Just remember that in the end of the day we can always talk...as lovers would...as we have always talked. Everyday you make me worried, bothered, and crazy. Of course you are always on my mind. That's why I can't stop talking about you...I keep worrying about whether you are really in love with allen..I worry about your sicknesses...I worry about ever being together with you as allen is. No matter what these things never leave my mind, and I've always got to ask you "are you ok? are you alright with this? what if it was me?". I want to know that I'm not invisible...that I am still someone to you.
Of course I'll still be jealous of allen, that's because I still love you. I love you more then an important person, than a friend. Yet it's that same love that is saying at the moment just keep it a secret, that if right now we confessed our loves to each other, we wouldn't be able to stand our time apart. I'm already scared of what lies ahead, but I'm sure we'll get through, that you'll be back and in my arms in no time.
So I want you to be strong Nikki...don't fall for these nightmares around you that you'd lose me or allen. That you'd never come back. Don't ever think that I could/would find another person to replace you. I'll never let anything like that happen. I'll never let another woman get between you and me...I'll fight whoever tries to hurt you. I'd gladly give my life just to protect you. I love you more than anything, anyone. I love you so much...life itself is not important to me.
god knows how far I'd go for you....now just promise me you'll be strong through the rest of the summer, through those years of not being legal. You don't have to burden yourself with everything, that's why you have me...I'm just saying don't keep crying, don't always worry. Have us in mind, of how much fun we had and how much we love you.
Now I want you to delete this entry....less you get in trouble by someone. Just don't forget me, that I still and forever will love you. Just remember that, No matter what fears...we will still be here...you will always be in my heart and on my mind. Forever and always yours, your dearest friend Chris.