I couldn't help it. I need to type more. I've been thinking way too much for my own good.
Now, back on track.
The reason I've been thinking about this is because one of my section members, Jihoo, continuously tells me to be more open to the section. Personally, I don't want to even try anymore. I have tried in the past, to connect with them, I mean. Any attempts at a conversation died out within minutes. I was often ignored, even if I tried to insert myself into the conversation. I simply said "Screw it." Why the hell would I even want to try if they simply pass me by? There is no sense in that and I'm fine where I stand.
I have serious issues when people tell me I should do this and that when they know that it is not within my character to do so. For me to be open, I must connect. If I don't, I don't. So constantly trying to bother me about it isn't going to help any. Hell no. It's going to simply bother me.
I suppose that I want friends that I can vent to with personal problems. I have one who I love to death. She's one of the two people that I can actually go up to and have them understand me. The other is from my old school, but I don't talk to her often anymore. I am pretty sad about that.
I'll continue this again. For now, it's time to sleep.
Now, back on track.
The reason I've been thinking about this is because one of my section members, Jihoo, continuously tells me to be more open to the section. Personally, I don't want to even try anymore. I have tried in the past, to connect with them, I mean. Any attempts at a conversation died out within minutes. I was often ignored, even if I tried to insert myself into the conversation. I simply said "Screw it." Why the hell would I even want to try if they simply pass me by? There is no sense in that and I'm fine where I stand.
I have serious issues when people tell me I should do this and that when they know that it is not within my character to do so. For me to be open, I must connect. If I don't, I don't. So constantly trying to bother me about it isn't going to help any. Hell no. It's going to simply bother me.
I suppose that I want friends that I can vent to with personal problems. I have one who I love to death. She's one of the two people that I can actually go up to and have them understand me. The other is from my old school, but I don't talk to her often anymore. I am pretty sad about that.
I'll continue this again. For now, it's time to sleep.
