I have to be strong... but it is so hard...
My boyfriend has decided to join the National Guard. He will be gone for six months basics along with career training and will have a slight chance of being sent to Iraq... I can't possibly imagine him being sent off to the war, it hurts to even bear the fact that he will be away from my side for six months. I can't stop crying over that fact, and it even kills me now just to even think about it.
When he had informed me that he was to leave for the National Guard, I was concerned, but I didn't cry or anything due to the fact that I thought that basics would only take three months and he would be home to train for his career. I was wrong. He is to be out of state for six months (3 months per). I catch myself breaking down, but I have to be strong... for him.
He feels really strongly about joining, mainly because he wishes to get a good start off in life and also to prepare for whenever we start to live with each other. I'm not going to tell him not to go, because he really believes that his purpose in life relies on the Guard. I told him that I didn't want him to leave, but I also stated that I support him... in which I do, but I dread every moment. He needs support, and I will try my best to put myself aside so that he can be strong, too...
I love him, and I don't want him to leave me in any form or fashion: breaking up with me, being away from me for a long time, or death....
~*Whispers of a Dream*~
