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stare I'm just really depressed these days.... school is really fun, and basically all my classes are pretty cool, I get to go over to some of my friends houses after school. But all in all there's just something missing, my friend Zach is a really nice guy he lightens up my day if it's been shitty.
But nothing has been the same since I went to youth conference and girls camp... I was in touch with one of my best friends, the first guy I'd ever met on the internet who actually wanted to call me, wanted to hear my voice...... but after I went to girls camp and whatever else, I kinda lost track of the guy... heh, last week my cousin PMed him and said some really weird stuff.
The truth is, that it was true every bit of what she said. He said to call him that night... well I didn't look at the day he sent it, when I went back to it to find the date it had been two days before, I was on at the time he said to call.... but hadn't gotten the message untill she went on and checked her PMs. I've even called him almost twice every night I was on. I don't know what's wrong with me I'm only 14 he's two years older than me, even one of my neighbors who wen't to camp with me, who heard me talk about him every single day and night I was there... she says that he's probably found someone else.... and I've thought that for a while..... but now that at least three people who know about him have said the same thing, so I don't know, maybe it's true, maybe I should give up....... maybe I should jut let go.

"Missing"

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

[Chorus:]
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

[Chorus]

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

[Chorus]