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Hi everyone. This is Josh. I didn't write yesterday because I stated out so late. A friend of mine took me to youth group, and we didn't get back untill WAY past my bed time...That's right...I have a bed time! I have a problem. Here's how it goes:
-Girl one loves me. I START to LIKE her.
-Girl two seems sad.
-Gilr one kisses me. I kiss back. She's great, but something seems wrong...
-I am out of the cricle with girl two, she's upset with all men, doesn't tell me why, but she tells other people
-I realise that I don't love girl one, and deside to tell her when I get a chance, girl 2 seems to hate me

I know that I'm implying connections that might not be real, but this is just from my point of view. I'm going to tell girl 1 in the morning. I'm so worried about how she'll take it. she's so sweet. I hope that I don't destroy our friendship. As for girl two, she's my best friend. I actually used to realy, realy like her...A LOT! But she doen't date. She's had some bad things happen to her in the past. I kinda' knew that she'd never date me, but when I told her how I felt and she stuck to her promise to never date, it pretty much crushed any hope I had in to little pieces. I've gotten over her, but now it looks like she's jellous of me and girl one. ("What They Say" -"Now that you've stoped liking me, I've desided to start liking you." See what I mean?) I'm not sure though on acount of the fact that today when I tried to ask her...again...what was wrong, she said, "Don't ask stupid questions" and "Just shut up." Not sure she likes me so much any more. I don't want to loose her. Well, I'll just keep praying and see what happens. In my experience as a Christian, I know that everything happens for a reason. Some thing good will come of this I'm sure. Doesn't mean that it makes the prosses any easier. I know that if me and girl two get through this, we'll be so much closer that we ever were. I also know that is we're not carefull, this could tare as appart forever. That's what I'm worried about. If anyone reads this(especially girl two, she knows who she is), please comment. I need some help. Thanks everyone.

Josh