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Good day. This is Josh. Well, the only thing worth reporting today is the development and progress of the situation that I'm in. I told Girl one how I felt. She seemed to take it quite well, but I was told that she was pretty broken up about it later. I can kinda' tell that even though we said we'd still be friends, we probebly won't talk much anymore. Girl two was much friendlier with me today. I could tell that she was still very upset with me. She seemed like she was just politely tollerating some one rather than being genuinly friendly. It's probebly true. What ever it is that I did, or said...or mabey didn't do, it realy hurt her. I know that some realy bad things have happened to her. Meabey I've done something that in her eyes is simallar or the same. Mabey I hurt her feelings with a joke. I do joke a lot. Mabey one got to her. I'm starting to think that mabey another girl was involved with this. Girl THREE, is very open. She's also very wraped up in her emotions. What she feels, she openly states as fact. If she's down in the dumps one day, what comes out is not, " I'm feeling down, but it's no big deal." What comes out is, " My life sucks! I hate this school! I hate Florida! I hate everything!" As for open, she love talking to me and many other people about her relationships and what she does in them. This is a horrible combination. I think that it is very likely that I said something that she took the wrong way and told Girl two about it(although I can't imagine what). More and more I'm begining to think that this is all one huge typical high school missunderstanding. I hope that it is as simple as that. I would never mean to hurt girl two. She's my best friend. Well I'm still praying, and thing are actually looking up. I'm comming up with more leads, girl two was nicer, and I know(based on Christian beliefs) that something more good than all the bad in this situation put together will come from this. It's not a matter of if for me, but when. I don't want this to be over tommarow. Obviously it's the will of God that this continue for a little while longer. However, I can't wait to get through this and find out what good things God has in store for us. It's like Christmas. I know and understand that I can't have it early,but I'm so excited about it. I can't wait for it to come. I'll keep you all posted. I may not be able to write tomarrow because I'm going on a trip with my youth group, and won't be back untill late. Untill next time.

Josh