I just posted a super long entry.. and somehow accidentally cancelled it??? isn't there something that asks you if you're sure you want to do that? gonk stare sheesh... i'll rewrite it later.. but, it was mostly just venting about my work.. yeah.
more of that... lots more...
I don't know. Sometimes, I just wonder if there has ever been anyone else out there who is ever left out of everything as i am? You know.. i've always been a nice person and generally get along with most people i meet.. but, for some odd reason, none of them ever like me enough to want to hang out iwth me or treat me like i'm worth a piece of freaking crap... gonk crying What makes me so unworthy that noone finds value in me?
crying crying crying and.. very few people can really relate to it.. they get invited to stuff by their friends all the time.. they have people who call them and like to spend time with them... but when does anyone ever want to do anything with me? I mean.. I have josh.. but were he to meet me today as tho we had never met.. would he even want to be with me? I really believe Jesus gave him to me... I guess I do need to finally finish learning how to drive.. if i could go places, i could go visit other people... I just wish I really mattered to other people.. even if it were just one person.... just someone who really liked me and wanted to be around me more... sad sweatdrop
 Graceangel · Tue Nov 16, 2004 @ 07:22pm · 3 Comments |
