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Baby don't hurt me~ don't hurt me, no more~ (kay lame joke over)

I'm talking to my friend, and he says the reasons why I wanted Chloe back all sound like love to him.. but I don't really know what love is..

I know I say it, and I know I should feel it, but I'm kinda confused at to what it is I'm supposed to be feeling.. no one could ever explain love to me, and they can't explain the feeling..so I'm lost..

&this is so weird coming from a Cancer.. we should know all about all kinds of emotions and all.. but I dunno.. I know that when I'm with her, all I feel is happiness.. and that I'd do anything for her.. but is that really love, or is that just my childish notions of what love is, based on romantic novels/movies/anime?

Do I honestly, know what love is..? I might, actually.. but I have so many feelings all the time, I never know what any of them are.. I'm always very confused with what I feel.. Mal told me that in the past, she used to get this sort of painful feeling when she was with others, that she knew she wasn't meant to be with them..said it was sort of a sign, and I had that feeling too in the past, except with Chloe.. so does that mean I love her..?

I'm just very confused.. might be my mood fluctuations though..

Some days, I think I could write a novel to define what love really is.. but days like today, I don't even know if I have real emotions = =;

Not in a bad mood.. just.. confused.