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I'm finally calm now.. I'm just very.. dead.

I'm upset, obviously.. and I keep thinking it was a mistake, but the fact that she said the more I cling to her, the more she pushes me away, and that I'm the only person she actually went out of her way to ignore.. that hurt the most.

I can't believe she'd do that to me, honestly. She says she loves me, but that's just the way she is.. and I guess we can't be together for that reason. I love her, so much.. I'm seriously broken, that I've lost her.. but if it won't work, then it won't.. -sighs-

I'm .. so.. miserable..

for two years, everything was perfect.. but now she's pushing me away.. so we've just wasted two years, huh.. .___.''

I hate this.. I want to get her back, partially.. like, half of me wants to cling to her, and say, "I'M SORRY, LETS GET BACK TOGETHER WHY GOD WHY" but the other half of me is saying, "No. Not yet, atleast.. you've changed a lot for her, you've done everything for her.. and it's not like she hasn't tried, but.. you can't be the only one in this thing, if you both want it to work."