nothing really bad is going on.. i'm kind of enjoying the tranquility.. I'm trying so hard to avoid the drama.. I know chloe is going through a thing right now.. and I feel like a p***k for "avoiding it".. but.. I don't want to get swept away and get hurt again.. so I'm keeping myself on the shore, away from the river.. I'm watching the other fish swim and play, but I'm sitting comfortably where I am.. as long as i'm not hurting, i'm ok..
do I want to be with her..? yeah, she's my best friend.. that means more to me than any lame girlfriend status.. her being chloe, and being my friend, means the world to me. I care about her so much, that her just exsisting as a person makes my life.. I don't care if me 'n her are "unnofficial" (well technically, since she doesn't love me, we're nothing o o') or watever for the rest of time, 'cuz just being friends is okay with me.
Maybe I'm lame, weak, etc., from just being happy with being her friend.. but if I know that's all I'm going to get, then.. I'd rather have that, than nothing. I'm willing to take what I can get..
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