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Ok~ I have like.. ******** of things to type~~

So, dad's in the hospital. He's very ill, and his foot ******** up pretty bad, so he had to go to the ER. He said that a doctor told him he'd probably be there for 3 months.. but I don't think he honestly will.. but.. meh. Just going by what I heard him say.. (though I swear someone else told me he'd be out tuesday.)

So basically, I'm going to be home alone for quite a bit. No definite time period planned out yet. Chloe offered to come stay with me while he was gone (such a sweetheart) but she has classes soon, so she obviously can't..

ON THE SUBJECT OF CHLOE..

I'm probably going to visit her this summer some time.. and I'm thinking I may just move down there if I do. Like, ******** it all, if I can find a job within the time I'm there.. why not, right? I can stay with Chloe, pay half the rent/bills.. and that'd be fine 'n dandy. It'd actually work out perfectly.

THERE IS SOMETHING I DON'T WANT YOU TO READ, CHLOE.
I'M TYPING IT IN WHITE. SKIP THIS PART.

however.. I've been getting hit on a lot at work, by cute girls and all.. (some ask for my cell number, ask me when I get off work, stuff like that.. basically, they want in my pants. I've been kinda curious.. about what sex would be like with someone else.. other than Chloe.. she's my first, and my only.. but.. I dunno. I just wonder.. I sometimes think about maybe taking some of these girls up on their offers.. I mean, I am technically single.. so It's not cheating.. but when it comes down to it, I know I can't.. I'd tear chloe apart, and sh'es too damn good for me to do that. I can't hurt her, I just, can't. I'd have to chop off my p***s if I hurt her in any way. I physically cannot bring myself to do it. She'd do anything for me, I'm not going to ******** this up if I can help it... I love her.. so I'm not going to let my wandering mind/curiousity get the best of me.. sometimes, though..

but yeah, things with me and her have been going pretty well.. we're not technically together, but she knows how she feels about me, and I know how I feel about her, so .. we're just.. us. We just.. go with the flow~

My uncle has been pissing me off lately though. First, he insinuated my dad may kill himself (which I KNOW he wouldn't do, my uncle's just a ******** c**t), then I had to help him build a ramp for my grandpa (which he didn't want), and all the while, he annoyed the ******** out of me. He's incredibly obnoxious, and I want to punch him in the face everytime I spend more than 5 minutes with him. It's ridiculous how annoying he is. He means to do good, and doesn't mean to offend anyone or anything, but jesus christ you can only take so much of him.

That's pretty much it for now.. just tired.. too wound up to sleep yet though, part of working graveyard.. you can't crash right when you get home.. just.. can't. Doesn't work out that way. Gonna try to sleep now though.