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Ok, so ..

I'm moving to missouri again, moving near Chloe. (it's gonna be difficult getting there on my own, and getting my own place and everything, but I'll manage. I'll have to do it anyways, right? K.)

So I'm not moving in with Chloe, because I think she's going through the same thing I am, where you're not really sure that you want to spend the rest of your life with this one person.. you want to know FOR SURE.. you know? (well I was going through that, I kind of dont' care now, but I think she might be going through) and she wants some freedom.. me living with her wouldn't work for her, so .. it's fine. I'll move NEAR her, so I have a friend.. I guess that's all I need.

Dating wise -- I'm not going to. If a girl wants to fool around, hang out, sure, but no more commitments. No dating, no boyfriend girlfriend bullshit, we'll fool around, have fun -- but that's it. Nothing serious~

Anyways, I doubt it'll even be that way, but yeah. I don't know, she still has feelings for me, I know, I still have feelings for her, I know, and.. so we're like, "GRR I HATE YOU", but more of, "lets be sure.." which actually works for me.

It's been working for me..

If she finds someone else, dates other guys, starts relationships and all that with other guys, I'll support her, I'm not going to sit here and harass her and be like, 'NO YOU HAVE TO BE WITH ME', I'm not a p***k like that lol.

(I'll be jealous, but it'll be a secret... as in, I won't show it.)

So... I dunno.

I just want to be around her, she's like, my best friend.. and I'm HOPING that if she moves out of missouri, she tells me and lets me tag along (different apartments again, because I kind of don't want to spend the rest of my life in missouri, I just want to stay there for her, sadly lol)