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Going back to work at 2pm, so! I'm writing this at work. Doubt it'll be the only one.

So, talking to Neena. She says me and Chloe are being stupid children, and we need to ''either kiss or stop staring into each others eyes, because we're simply wasting our time otherwise~" Basically, date, or stop the lovey stuff. stop acting like a couple if we aren't going to be one, because it's only going to hurt that much worse if one of us moves on (namely, if Chloe moves on..I've already decided what I'm going to do.)

If she calls me tonight, I'll let Neena talk to her about it -- but... okay, I mean, as two single individuals, this stuff is ok, right? But, the thing is.. we're a couple. Official or not -- the more we act like a couple, the more we are. Normal flirting/sex is fine.. but we're passionate about it, because we have feelings for eachother.

In a anime, we'd be the two characters who were all over eachother, but wouldn't act on it -- because we're both idiots. I know that right now, Chloe wants us to be unnofficial -- so.. I guess we'll have to stop the lovey stuff.

Actually -- ******** that. Y'know what? I'm going to do something I never do -- I'm going to let it go. I'm not going to stir up this drama with Chloe -- she's been patient with me, so ******** it.

No drama. That's just how it's gotta be I guess.. I mean, really, It's like i'm trying to punish her for being my ex -- no. Not doing that s**t. Neena has a point, but! I'm going to do this my way fromnow on.

Was I hurt that she acted like she didn't care, when I said I was thinking about staying (before I left for work) Yes... but I'm not her boyfriend, just a friend. Things are different.

I'm actually going to struggle, and make sure I get down there, in spite of her It'll be hard -- and miserable,. I'll probably hate everything, and I don't know how soon i'll be able to do it -- but goddamn.. i'm going to fight her on this. If she doesn't want me there -- screw that! I'm not letting her slip through my fingers.. i'm ging to make this work.