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Just got off the phone with Chloe. I feel bad -- I keep making things ******** dramatic!

Anyways, I know she's going ot move out of missouri when she can.. and if she's single, I'll follow her. If not.. I"ll leave her alone. She's my best friend, so I want to hang with her. But, obviously if she gets serious about someone else, I'll back off.. best friend or no, I can't take her from someone she loves.

I had to let Rochelle go, after all. That was, s**t.. 6 years ago. While I'd love it if Chloe was the one.. if not, I won't fight it. She deserves to be happy.

Neena said, she's the one. She says, the future is unpredictable, too; so, i'm not setting my heart on it. I'll fight my a** off for our relationship, but I won't pull her away from someone else. So, single chloe is free game, taken chlore means I've lost; and i'll move on without a fight. I'll still talk to her online, keep in touch, but I won't harass her. I've learned from my past. I'm starting to finalize non-chloe plans, too.

I'm not going ot mention relationships around her anymore. She's a free spirit. If I try to lock her aay, she'll only struggle and run. I"'ll just be the warm hand to pet her, someone she can come back to -- but not a cage.

You can't keep that girl locked away, anyways. That's what I love about her.

SO! Recap: No drama (I'll pull it off.) No relationship talk (no cages.)

Non-chloe plans: I guess, make a few good guy friends, and go out and have loveless sex with random hotties. Not fulfilling, but it'd satisfy some needs she can't.

Hell, my life is so unpredictable.. I'm just going to take a page out of her book, and go with the Flow. Whatever happens, happens, after that.