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May make this entry private when I get home.. for obvious reasons.. (If she's confused and reads this, it'll only mess her up even more.. I don't want ot do that to her. I"m not a complete p***k.)

I think I fell in love with her all over again.. I mean, lately I've been feeling like any form of love from here on out would be kinda fake; like I just don't have it in me anymore.. but with the pervy things we've been doing, I felt that old spark.. the feeling I got when I first really fell for her.. I've been thinking about her non-stop since this morning -- I feel like she's someone new I guess, and I can tell my friends: "Goddamn, I can't get enough of this girl!"

If I had just met her, I'd be working my a** off to get to know her. I'm like, addicted..she's one hell of a drug, and I need my fix..

Having already been with her in the hpast -- I can't tell her this now.. It would be too cruel; so i'm going to keep my true feelings secret, and enjoy what I do with her.. (which I do enjoy, oh so much)

If she isn't the one, and we don't work out, I hope I can find someone else I feel this way about.. It's such a great feeling, I never want to give it up.. Is it love? Maybe.. Happiness? Real, true happiness? Definitely This amazing of a feeling is worth anything I have to go hrough to get it..

If I end up homeless, out in the streets, I wouldn't mind, so long as I'm happy.. x__x;; GOD, this girl! the things she does to me!
IRL it's multiplied - then, -NOTHING- can bother me.. I'm in constant bliss, oblivious to the world around me... it's just me and her, nothing else matters..