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Lately I've been really down. I spent the morning bucking hay for some friends of the family and it's gone a long way towards boosting my spirits. It gets my mind off the things in life bothering me. We got up and left well before grandpa woke up and now that we're home he's gone somewhere so I haven't been around him all day.

He's been getting me pretty down. He keeps getting on my case about stuff I already know, he always complains about how horrible the world is, and he keeps judging people. He calls all his negative judgment "observations" like it really makes any difference. Either way he is coming to large negative conclusions about someones personality because of the little things.

Anyway I haven't had to listen to that all day so that might be a big reason I'm feeling better. I didn't sleep last night because I had a lot on my mind. Anyway I was up at 6. Figuring I would be getting dirty anyway I just put yesterdays clothes back on and called it good. I've had no appetite so I skipped breakfast. I just decided to d**k around on the internet till time to go. My sister kept making a big deal about how this would be an exhausting day and how I needed breakfast and a gallon of water to keep me hydrated.

7:30 we're at the farm and ready to go. As it turned out we were only making one trip and we were dropping the bales out of the barn rather than stacking off the field. It's not hay season so they just needed one load to last till hay season. We left the farm at 7:30, drove to the barns several miles away, loaded up, drove back to the farm. and loaded the barn there all by 9:30. It's not all that much work but it gives me a sense of accomplishment. All that on an empty stomach and I'm still not hungry.

I kinda over worked my self so I felt tired as I worked, but when we were all done and I got time to stop and rest I felt like I could take on another load of hay. I kinda wish I could do farm work more regularly. It would go a long way in me getting in better shape.