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I love watching Chloe sleep.

She looks so innocent when she's sleeping.. she looks so.. I don't know. I can't describe it. I could sit here for eternity and watch her sleep, knowing she's safe..

After having moments like I did this morning.. there are times where I remember why I do anything at all, times where I remember just how much I care about her, why I love her.. and this is one of them. We didn't talk much today.. but that's okay.. because.. god damn do I ever love her.

That's the thing I sometimes forget.. sure, lust is fun, fantasies are great.. but there's something more to it all, something that makes it all real, something that makes the relationship worth pursuing, and that's the romance, the feelings, the love.. I sometimes forget why I don't pursue other girls, but times like this remind me.. I'm remembering it more and more each day.. and the times where I "forget it" occur less and less.. (It hasn't happened in half a year, or longer.. )

As sad as it sounds, her just sleeping means the world to me. Being able to know she's there.. it makes me happier than I could ever be.. and she's not even doing anything special.

Just sleeping, made me fall in love with her all over again..

This is what life is about.. this is what it means to be happy.