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so I woke up this morning, I was emo because I missed chloe, we had no dr. peppers in the house, and I use them as coffee, and I was just in a general bad mood.

there was a wine cooler in the fridge, only 1/4th of it was left, dad told me to drink it because he wasnt going to... soo I did.

I instantly regretted it, felt guilty, and blah x x;

then neena got all blah because it ******** with my mind, therefore it ******** with her, and she was just so pissed, especially after everything she's told me.. oh god she was mad.. she kept giving me migraines.. like they'd go away after i took migraine meds, then she'd make them come back full force.. she was sooooooooooooo pissed...shes still pissed, but she stopped giving me migraines..

she basically let me know that if i drink anything, ever again, i'm going to be in so much trouble.. like, she might leave me, trouble. sooooooooooooo

no drugs, no cigs (they'll kill my lungs anyways) no booze, nothing. she said she especially doesn't want me to influence chloe, and she doesn't want me to drag her down... especially drugs.

she also said, that chloe can't do any of that either.. she already knows this, but neena said, everyone needs to remember, because she's not tolerating it at all.. she said chloe is a candidate for a gift, a special gift, and so she cant. she also doesnt want the reverse happening and me being influenced by chloe.. sooo yeahhhh..

she's soooooooooooooooooooooooooo pissed.. I guess I cant blame her.. she said me and chloe need to move near eachother where we can keep control of one another, and that we're not allowed to do any of this, because if either of us starts this s**t, she wont' tolerate it. like..........

if i start anything, she'll probably leave me. if chloe does, she'll probably pull me away...(this terrifies the ******** out of me) sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo yeahhh

im not talking to neena right now, giving her time to cool down.. x x ugh