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Im flustered.. x x'

chloe is so... perfect. she's becoming so... "right". its a great thing, its making me so happy.. "why are you acting like it's bad?" I didnt expect it to happen so soon...

this year is throwing me off so bad.. I cant predict peoples actions anymore, I cant predict what's going to happen in the near future..

chloe tells me that i over think... that things would be easier if I didnt think so much..but i've always been like this, i have to think constantly.. or else i wont understand a single thing.

ive been worried about being bi polar, worried about it worsening.. worried about all sorts of things, but she tells me its okay, she tells me its going to work out in the end.. there's just giong to be rough patches.. the same thing I told her... x x;

she smites me with a single word....

she asked why neena wasnt paying attention to her tonight..i didnt tell her its because neena was holding me together before she called, i didnt say that, even though she calmed me down, neena was keeping me from getting riled up again.. they work as a team, in perfect union.. chloe calms me down, relaxes me, makes me happy, and neena locks it in, making sure I dont sink again..

i hate being a burden..but i love them for bearing me this once..