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Okay, so get this. I was struggling with homosexual thoughts for a few months, and it was driving me nuts! I hated it, mostly because I couldn't tell anyone and get the moderate reaction I needed (not disgust, but not acceptance for something I wasn't going to accept). Anyway, it's stopped (mostly anyway), and so I came clean to my mom tonight and let her know what was going on. It was like the Lord was pushing me to. Anyway, my mom, who is not for homosexuality and maintains tha stance it's wrong, told me she had been in the same position, it's part of normal sexual development, and it's not wrong as long we don't act on it. You actually shouldn't get totally disgusted by the thought of liking the same gender, because that makes it easy to hate your own self. She told me exactly what I needed. ^^ We also talked about the psychological impact of being around girls more then guys, and more stuff like that, but I'm just glad. I understand, I think, better now. I still think homosexuality is wrong, but we shouldn't, as a society, get disgusted. We also shouldn't force people who feel that way to embrace it with open arms. There's a middle ground where we can tell them they can choose help and a different way. :3 Anyways, that's all I really wanted to say...

That, and it was a gorgeous night tonight. I went to my school's art show, which was fun, and then my sis and I were hanging around in a parking lot waiting for my mom. I was lying down in the backseat, and the waterdroplots on the window from this glorious storm were more amazing then anything I'd seen at the show. They sparkled like diamonds against one window, and became orange opals against the other one. I know I'm strange for finding beauty in that, but whatever. ^^ I love this beautiful world sometimes.