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It'll make everything easier..

I feel like a ******** tard. = =; ugh, I shouldn't have mentioned the rave.. I know she won't go, I know I can trust her, (least I like to tell myself I can.. I told myself I could before though too, which is why I sometimes doubt myself) but meh.. = =;

I should stop trying to get into anything rave related, I should probably not even go to the ones at a-kon, if she goes or doesn't go its w/e, but i probably shouldn't just so I won't think about them.. meh..

I just like goggles and glowsticks.. and techno music.. meh...

I'm a ******** idiot, I always make problems worse.. everything was fine, but I keep bringing it up, I make her want to go to raves.. meh.. I know she wont.. but I make her want to..= =; UGH

******** MY LIFE....

life will be better when I have noise cancelling headphones.. then I can block out the world, and get lost in sound..