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Listening to this song, but.. I'm not upset. o.o

I'm actually in a pretty good mood.. I just love this song.. it brings back memories, you know..?

Me and Chloe got into a big fight today.. there was a misunderstanding.. (several) and we talked. We hate fighting.. but with each fight, we grow closer.

I slept some.. and meh. I feel better.. life.. it's not going to be easy. There's going to be a lot of rough patches ahead.. and .. -sigh- the reason why I want to get my "OMFG BIG ******** UP" out of the way early, is because I know it's coming.

I've been super careful lately, because I'm terrified of it. I don't want to make a big ********.. I don't. .__.; ugh.. I'm hoping I never will.. I hope I never will.. ._____.;; I don't trust myself. I don't.. meh.. IT'S OKAY.. I just don't want to hurt Chloe.

That's my fear. I honestly dont' care about myself, but I don't know what it's going to be, so I have to be on guard, and I don't know how it's going to happen, if it hasn't happened yet.. (It may have been sary.. GOD I HOPE IT'S ALREADY HAPPENED x.x) then I'll be okay.. but I'm going to be on guard..

I'm building my trust in her.. it's just going to take time. My trust is like a diabetic wound, it's going to take a long time to heal... but it's not impossible. I will trust her as much as I have before.. it's just going to take a lot of work between the two of us.. and.. yeahhhhhh.. x x;

I'm so . . . I don't know. Lack of sleep is ******** with me.. but I have so much to do.

Lately, I've been spending time with Chloe, or watching Burn Notice.. and I haven't been doing my other duties that need to get done..

Other friends need my attention/help.. they need to lean on me.. people need this, and that.. and.. I dunno. I feel like I'm playing a RPG, and I just wanted to work on the main storyline.. now I have to go back and pick up the sidequests. XD