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I don't know if it's permanent.. or what.

but I don't care anymore.

It's like being emotionless.. like being dead inside.. buttttt.. different. I just.. don't care what people do anymore. I'm only going to watch out for myself... I used to worry about people, I used to care about people... but now, I don't give two shits.. I'm just not here for them anymore. I don't want to be here for them. I'm going to do what makes me happy, and me alone. I've lost the ability to care for others...

I told Chloe she can start going to raves again. I told her she could go to the 3day concert.. I just don't care. If she starts down the drug path again, she'll just be like ellie, and... meh, who cares..?

She pretty much told me to my face today that what I say doesn't mean jackshit. I guess doing something permanent to her body without talking to the person who's going to see her face every day for the rest of our lives is just a minor detail.. but it's all fine and good.

I really don't care anymore. I'm .. done? I don't know. I don't know anything anymore lmfao..

I do know that all actions have consequences, and those reactions to the action have consequences...