Sometimes words can’t describe what I feel
Not even actions can show what I feel
So I just sit on this bench watching the world go by
Watching peoples’ lives being played out
But mine is staying still
Seasons change… time goes by around me
And I observe thinking most of the time
Why my life is empty with no drive to be in this play
People come and go
And past faces in the crowd are mixed
Sometimes come and say hi
But others want to forget the friendship we had together
I let them have their way… keeping the memories for both of us
It hurts but I still keep them
And some use those memories to keep a hook on me
I will do anything to keep our friendship going
But they use me to get what they want or hurt me because of what I probably did to them
I hate myself for being weak
Hate giving myself to another person
Heart is broken from past memories and trust
Trust gone
Love hard to give someone
Cannot... I just cannot break again
Don’t over analyze things they said
But I can’t let you in
Because I’m scare of you and the love you can give me
Not use to it so I run away from it
So please forgive me
For being this person that I have become.
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into the world as i see it
things i have written during my life.
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Abigayle Ligerwing
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