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A random collection of my thoughts
I wonder...
So my oldest uncle called grandpa. They're talking about various stuff. I feel rather uncomfortable when he calls or when I'm around him. I can tell he tolerates me but he doesn't really like me. I've felt this since I was a little kid and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because my grandparents raised me rather than my real parents so he sees me as a parasite. Maybe he just doesn't like me because I'm my dads kid. He's had something against my dad for as long as I can remember because of personal things. If either of those are his reasons then it's not my fault. I didn't ask to be taken away from my parents. I didn't ask my grandparents to adopt me. I didn't make my dad and him have their falling out. Where I stand now I can understand him hating me. I'm 20 still at home. I'm not going to college, and I don't have a job. That's my fault and for all real purposes I am a parasite. But that really started around my mid teens. Even as a kid I felt like he just tolerated me. He lives out of state so I don't talk to him face to face. Even if I could face him I'm not sure what I would say.

Actually the funny thing is I can accept his view of me more easily than my dads other siblings. My aunt thinks I'm alright I think. Actually I'm not sure how she really feels about me. I've got 2 other uncles that think the world of me. They practically praise me for being such a great person. It's really awkward because I feel like it's all a bunch of rubbish. That's just me though.

Seriously though I am a parasite.I need to change that. My biggest hurdle is that I'm lazy. I really need to change that. Secondly I don't get along with people very well. I get annoyed rather easily when I work with others. I need to work on my people skills if I want to keep a job. I guess there are a lot of other things I should work on.






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Twisted_Lover21
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commentCommented on: Tue Sep 07, 2010 @ 10:54pm
You aren't a parasite. And you've done a pretty good job of keeping me as a friend. Stop being so pessimistic. xp

Guess what? ninja

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Idk. I'm bored.


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People who fear their feelings
People who fear their life
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