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A girl I liked had never shown me her face, I was fine with it, she didn't need to show me her face. We she began tossing the word love around, I was skeptical, she wouldn't show me her face. I beg and beg to see it, but she refuses to budge. By the time I see her face, I let out a sigh of relief, she seems to be beautiful. Its only her lips I see... I tell her I love her, I really mean it, for the first time I've ever said it to someone. She won't show me her face. She apologies for it, but thats not sorry, that stupidity. I know she doesn't love me, she's just like the rest. I'm cute and funny, smart and perfect, they all say the same things. But when it comes down to it, they only want me because of the idea of me. Never once has someone I cared about thought selflessly towards me. Not to the extent of buying a gift, neither giving a kiss or hug. But thinking that I can do better, and with a lot of them, I would agree. I pushed hard to she this dim light room and a shady face. But it wasn't worth it. The ignorance of such a feat disturbs me, the feat of saying no to someone you "love." I can understand a controversy like this in reference to sex. But this is just your face, and you lost me at your lack of confidence. I've lost all desires to hold your hand, to touch your face, to kiss your lips, and to feel your body. It's all gone because your fear came true the moment you allowed it to. Your not good enough for me, and I'm too good for you.

I'm not a game, you don't get another life when you ******** up.