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I'm trying so hard to not yell. I'm doing a very good job of it.

I'm tired of it always being "my way or the highway" with everyone.

********. everyone.

If things do not go their way 100%, they get so ******** bitchy.

What about me. Do my feelings not matter? No, of course not, because I am not you, and only you matter. Only your feelings count, I'm just an object to be used. A toy to be played with when you are bored and then to be shoved in your closet when you are done with me.

If i dare speak out against you I will be punished, I must do as you say and only as you say.

I put all the things I need to get done on the back burner, I don't get upset at you -- but when I do, you act as if I just insulted you so ******** personally, as if I called someone you cherished the most the worst thing possible, treating me like i'm such a monster, as if I killed someone close to you.

No. I'm not allowed to get upset. I have to smile, and stay happy all the time.

Everything has to go the way you want it to. Always.