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well, moving in with chloe was a mistake.. :/ cus now ill know what im missing when she goes. It really was too good to be true. I was too ******** happy here.. but, oh well. Life happens, right?

Chloe wants to go to college, which i 110% support, but she wants to live in a dorm or a apartment with a TON of other people. I can't do a dorm, because 1) shared bathrooms, and 2) the space is too small, and there'd always be someone else there. And if I hate my roomate? well i'm just ********. What if it's some junkie? I'M ********. I can't just leave then either because I have the dorm plan and i already payed for it. :/

I don't want to live with a bunch of other people, either. I don't trust people, at all. I seriously don't. I won't be able to sleep, if I live with other people. I'll stay in my "room" the entire time, never talking to anyone and totally freaking the ******** out. I don't do well being dropped into a situation with random people, I CANNOT handle it.

So, I never should've moved in with her in the first place. It was stupid to believe it'd work out, because holy s**t reality sucks dong. She's probably going to end up moving into a dorm or something else, and that's great for her. I'll probably end up moving back to texas. Once I know for sure she's going to a dorm ill call my dad and talk to him about it. Sabinal ******** sucks, but I guess life was just meant to suck? It drains away any ounce of happiness you can muster up, so, ********. :/

Sometimes I think I'd be better off dead.